I used to...

I used to know you and maybe I still know you like I did.
I used to admire you and maybe I still admire you like I did.
I used to look at your swollen eyes and maybe I still look at you.
I used to love you and I don't know if I still do or don't.

I used to hold your arms and feel your breath.
I used to hear your voice and think about its meaning.
I used to smell your scent and memorize it in my brain.
I used to count your footsteps and feel excited when you're around.

I used to listen your stories and laugh at them.
I used to joke around with you and be happy with it.
I used to debate with you and ended up with a warm hug from you.
I used to feel cranky to you and all you do is just calm me down.

I used to watch you leave and never look back.
I used to say "don't leave me alone" and all you ever give is a silence
I used to wait for you and you never come.
I used to have a faith on you and time by time it's fading.

what is an 'I used to' worth for?