This Kind of Mix Feelings

It's hurt and you dont know how it is.
It's hurt and you dont even wanna know how it is.
Ignore me, like you never meet me.
Ignore me, like I'm one of your unimportant things.
I got used to it.
I got used to all the things that you've done.

the most painful thing is not you're ignore me.
but still wanna connected with me is.
the craziest thing is not you do this to me.
but you still do the good things to me is.
the thing that I hate the most is not you.
but our memories are.

Call me mashocist cause I'd like you to hurt myself.
Call me cold-hearted cause I don't have the sense of pain.
Call me stupid cause I still wanna be your side even.
Call me stubborn cause I keep standing and listen nobody.