ugh, exactly hurt :"""(

hai...
I wanna tell you about some of my story of this week..
well, what should I tell you first? good news or bad news?
mm....lemme tell you about a good news, first..

ng.....you have to know that.....that.....I'm officially the member of FKIK Choir!!!!!!! aaaaaaa I'm so damn happy, you kno'!! this is my lil' dream. I love singing and I wanna canalize my hobby :) and of course, in order to get many experience of choir :)

so, between 30 Nov until 8 Dec I have to attend workshop of PASIFIK (re: the name of FKIK Choir) for a week. so, the point is....I'm so glad to be a part of PASIFIK and I would seriously bring a good name and myriad achievements for PASIFIK. bismillah..... o:)

and.....this is the time. I will tell you about the bad one.
I just had tonsillectomy. and....it was so painful. well, actually that pain is not the main reason but my trauma is. A few years ago (when I was in elementary school), I've had that tonsillectomy. At that time, that fckin surgical instruments scared me. That pair of scissors get in my throat and cut my tonsil.. ugh, you can't imagine how painful it is! Since that time ... I was so traumatized to remember it again.
and you know a moment of a few hours ago?????????? That bad memory came back to me!!! I can feel my body was shivering and feel so chill (whereas the weather is not cold). see? I face my own trauma..... and it's not (very) good. From now on, I can understand what people feel when they face their own trauma...
ya, I really understand it.....

so, a lesson from the story that I've just told is......happy and sad are a package. I felt so happy this noon but I felt so afraid (or sad) just now. huh.......just enjoy it with and face it with a smile :")